I know it doesn’t make any sense to assume that things mechanical are beyond the power of prayer, but let’s just say I don’t want to have to locate or pay for a transaxle for an old Honda Accord. It’s not my car (I only drive Toyotas with manual transaxles…) but a family member’s. One that is pregnant and hurting for cash. The things I get involved in. But at least my involvement is voluntary.
So for what it’s worth, I don’t want to have to locate or buy one.
I am grateful for most of the happenings in my life. I would love to see an improvement in my career, but at least I have something to live for besides work. For many years that was the only thing that I had to hold on to.
I am not a patient woman. Most of my life I have had to claw and constantly watch my back, and that hasn’t changed. I find it hard to trust anyone.
I still hope and pray for help with my own cynicism and unbelief. I have to trust that no matter who or what is trying to defeat me that God is there. Sometimes faith is not an easy pursuit. Sometimes my past and my tendencies toward depression and despair win out.
Lord, have mercy.